Monday, February 22, 2010
I woke up yesterday with the start of a sinus infection…booo. I refuse to miss work because of it though, I’m not gonna. I will just end up cleaning the house and doing laundry not even resting so I might as well be here at work not getting behind right?? I am chugging emergen-c so hopefully it works. Still no visit from Aunt flow and still no call from the reproductive endocrinologist’s office. This wait is going to slowly make me go insane!!!! I am waiting until the end of the week and then I’m calling again, I don’t care if I am annoying the secretary this is my health we are dealing with here people! So I wanted to share a story from last Saturday night. During the day on Saturday, my mom and I met a friend of mine for lunch and then walked around the local mall. I was surprised to see a ton of very pregnant women there which really upset me. My mom tried her best to make me feel better but when I pulled into the garage I was still upset. I was surprised to find my husbands family in the living room when I got home. I felt better seeing everyone as I walked in. We decided to go to dinner at a local Mexican restaurant that my husband’s family has been going to for over 20 years. This location is new but the owners are the same. When we first sat down, the owner’s sister came over and asked my father in law “is this your only grandchild?” my father in law just nodded. Then she looked at my husband and I and said “what is going on, you guys don’t want kids”. Shocked we just sat there for a minute and then my husband said “well we have two dogs right now and that is enough”. She seemed to be happy with the response and went about her business. When it was time to pay the bill she was the one who brought us the bill. As my husband handed her his card she said “well I hope that you two decided to have children they are such blessings”, my husband just smiled and said “we are trying”. The owner’s sister then said “well great, if it is meant to be then it will happen”. She is lucky she walked away when she did because I was about to hit her right in-between the eyes. She had taken a lovely dinner out with family into another situation that reminded me of the situation I am currently in. When she asked that question, it was like a slap in the face. Why do people who hardly know you think its ok to ask “when you are going to have kids”? To me, it so rude to put someone on the spot like that. There I was enjoying the evening with family, trying to forget about all of the pregnant women at the mall and right about the time I forgot, there is someone else reminding me…and I hate when people tell me what is meant to be will be because I don’t want to believe I wasn’t meant to be a mother!! Enough about that….I received a call from an insurance agent this afternoon. He left a voice mail while I was in a meeting so I am anxious to call him back after work and see what he has to say. Maybe he found some coverage?????