Wednesday, March 3, 2010
here a cramp.......there a cramp
Holly cramp! I have some weird cramping this morning. I think my right ovary is going to explode! When I was driving to work it felt like something was in my ovary knocking to try and get out. Maybe I am finally ovulating after a 4 month break? Or maybe its the progesterone supplements? I'm going to go with its ovulation because that makes me feel better. I can't chat long this morning. I decided to do an extra long workout and got to work a bit late...oops. This is day 9 of me not being able to smell or taste anything. Stupid cold season! How I miss the taste of my Starbucks coffee in the morning (don't worry it's decaf, dont want to ruin my chances of conceiving by drinking to much caffeine). And now....a little update. I made an appointment to receive applied kinesiology treatments next Friday, 3/12. Applied kinesiology is used to 'muscle test' your system to see if the following systems and markers are out of balance, and to see what specific supplements or herbs will correct that imbalance. This person was recomended to me and at this point I am going to try anything. Kinesiology can remove negative charges and blockages in your body. Lord knows after a year of taking fertility drugs..I am sure to have some negative charges. I will let everyone know what I think of the treatment. Could be all I need? After getting two periods with accupuncture and chineese herbs, I am a big believer in chinese eastern medicine. It has been around a long time so they must know what they are doing. Just in case, I have made a follow up appointment with the fertility specialist (CCRM) on May 7th. This will be to start the IVF process. My husband and I havent been there since the dreaded ultrasound in May 2009 where the specialist told me I would never have a period again (liar, I have had two since then) and that I wouldnt have children with my own eggs. I wanted to make the appoingment so we have it. By May, I will have met with the reproductive endocrinologist. If she says she doesnt want to try any therapies to try and restore ovarian function hen I am set to start the next step to becoming a mom in May. With an 80% success rate, IVF with donor eggs is my next step. I have thought this over allot in the past year. I really want to try and give birth to my children and that may be my only way. Besides, how cool would it be to give birth to an IVF baby and have my cycles start up again after I give birth? It has happened to women before. You have to go on through fertility problems believing that you are the exception. Just that postivie attitude can do wonders for your body. At the begining of my fertility journey, I spent so much time being angry and playing the victim that I created so much negative energy. I truly believe that if you believe something is going to happen, then it will. Everytime you start thinking something negative counter act that negative thought with two positive thoughts. After a while, you wont even have to think about doing that. Ok, have to go earn some money now. Here is a link to a list of things you should explore to help improve or restore your fertility. http://www.fertilityacupuncturist.com/fertility_treatment.html. Applied kineisiolgy is on the list. Excited to see how the treatment goes next week. This friday, I am considering becoming a blonde for awhile. Don't know if I have the kohonas to actually go through with it though and dont know if I have the personality to be a blonde??? We will have to see. Happy hump day and remember stay positive!!!