My Story

Hi there, welcome to my blog. Yes I am a drama queen and yes I have been deemed “infertile” by a few of the medical experts in the great State of Colorado but that hasn’t made me give up my quest to have children quite yet. My husband and I have been on the emotional roller coaster of infertility since March of 2009 when I stopped taking birth control after being on it for ten straight years. I have been keeping a journal since the start of this process and thought I would share it with all of the other incredible women out there who may be going through the same thing or similar thing that I am. At age 28, I have been diagnosed with Premature Ovarian Failure (POF). With no history of fertility problems on either side of my family and normal periods before going on the pill, I was left to accept that I have this condition and that there is no medical explanation for it. Since receiving this diagnosis from a fertility specialist in May 2009, I decided I simply wasn’t going to accept that I wasn’t going to have children with my own eggs. I jumped into the world of Eastern Medicine, worked with an Endocrinologist and even went on a fertility diet trying to get my ovaries to start functioning normally. The conclusion I have come to is this…..having Celiac Disease (Gluten/Flour intolerance) and continuing to eat flour throughout most of my childhood and part of adulthood caused my body to produce anti-bodies that have now started attacking the organs/glands in my body. After a visit to an endocrinologist in December 2009, it was determined that I have ovarian antibodies which are essentially antibodies produced by my body that only attack the endocrine system. No doctor has actually confirmed my self diagnosis that the Gluten Intolerance caused this but Celiac Disease is an auto immune disorder and any auto immune disorder can cause your body to attack itself. I am currently waiting to see a Reproductive Endocrinologist to see what the next steps for me will be. I have read that doctors can try and stimulate the Pituitary Gland to get your Endocrine System running again or that you can be given steroids to help restore ovary function. I am hoping to receive one of these treatments in the near future but only time will tell. In the past 10 months, I have watched many of my close friends become pregnant while I remain a sad statistic. This blog contains my thoughts as I struggle through the process of figuring out what in the world is going on with my body and how I continue to try to stay upbeat and positive about my fertility and enjoy my life. I hope that my blog can help others would love to hear from other women going through the same thing, inspiring stories or anyone who just needs encouragement. I know and understand how difficult every day can be once you have received the POF or infertile diagnosis and want you all to know that I am here for you. Please note that some of you may feel I am sharing to much information (TMI) and for that I am sorry. If you want to read my blog…you get all the details. You never know what will be helpful to someone else right? God bless everyone and I wish you luck on your fertility adventures:0) Remember mind over matter!

My intent is to raise awareness of the issues. Please do not rely on this or any other article when making decisions that will affect you and your health. These are things I have decided to try after much research.
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Infertile – a horrible word used to make women who are already feeling bad about themselves want to jump into a pool of chocolate fudge and eat their sorrows away only to realize that not only can they not get pregnant but now they don’t fit in their clothes. A word so easily tossed around by doctors that they don’t even realize they are saying it and a word that you never under any circumstances should google unless you want your brain to explode.

Wednesday, March 24, 2010

Holy snow!

Holy snow! We were hit with a blizzard over night so this morning I am sitting here working from home in my pjs. Snow Day!!! I am not proud that I already ruined my organic diet. Yesterday for lunch, I went to Cheesecake Factory with some friends from work and decided that I would split the gluten free Godiva cheesecake with someone. I ended up eating over half the piece and let me tell you it was amazing! For all of you GF people, if you have a Cheesecake Factory near you, you must go and try the Chocolate Gluten Free Godiva Cake! It is a small piece of what I imagine heaven would taste like. I decided that after my binge eating at lunch that I would not be eating anything but a banana for dinner and that was just so I could take my vitamins. That ended up being a good decision because about 30 minutes after my husband and I got home from work, we lost power in our home for about two hours. He ended up having turkey sandwiches for dinner and I, of course, had a banana. We decided to practice making a baby until the power came back on and then we fought over what we were going to watch. He has something against American Idol and I am so tired of watching House Hunters International which is his new obsession. I have no interest in watching people who have a ton of more money then me, purchase an awesome home in some awesome place like Italy or Australia. I am perfectly happy with my own life, unless I am reminded that I don’t have one like that and for this reason, House Hunters International makes me sad. I usually end up watching it because I get tired of fighting over the control and Idol this year isn’t what it used to be…I am sorry to say. With the exception of a couple of the contestants, they are all pitchy and sound like they are at a karaoke bar. I am not saying I can sing as good as them (even though I do take a stab at it occasionally on my American Idol Wii game), I am just saying that if you are competing for a record contract it needs to be better then karaoke bar quality don’t you think? All day yesterday my boobs hurt, I had cramps and I had thin, clear CM. I am very interested to see what happens today. My temperature was at 97.6 today which is a little higher then yesterday and when I was doing the ovarian message last night, every time I rubbed near my left ovary I would get a sharp cramp in the middle of my lower abdomen…kind of weird right? I can feel my body trying to ovulate and I hope it is successful. Well I can hear the Chihuahuas tearing something up they shouldn’t have so I guess I better end this and go yell at them.

Reading Materials/Other Items That Have Helped Me

  • Inconceivable
  • Making Babies by Sami S. David, MD & Jill Blakeway, LAc
  • pre-seed Fertility-friendly Intimate Moisturizer
  • restoring fertility - yoga for optimal fertility dvd - you can feel it working!
  • Taking Charge for Your Fertility by Toni Weschler, MPH
  • The Infertility Cure by Randin Lewis, Ph. D.