My Story

Hi there, welcome to my blog. Yes I am a drama queen and yes I have been deemed “infertile” by a few of the medical experts in the great State of Colorado but that hasn’t made me give up my quest to have children quite yet. My husband and I have been on the emotional roller coaster of infertility since March of 2009 when I stopped taking birth control after being on it for ten straight years. I have been keeping a journal since the start of this process and thought I would share it with all of the other incredible women out there who may be going through the same thing or similar thing that I am. At age 28, I have been diagnosed with Premature Ovarian Failure (POF). With no history of fertility problems on either side of my family and normal periods before going on the pill, I was left to accept that I have this condition and that there is no medical explanation for it. Since receiving this diagnosis from a fertility specialist in May 2009, I decided I simply wasn’t going to accept that I wasn’t going to have children with my own eggs. I jumped into the world of Eastern Medicine, worked with an Endocrinologist and even went on a fertility diet trying to get my ovaries to start functioning normally. The conclusion I have come to is this…..having Celiac Disease (Gluten/Flour intolerance) and continuing to eat flour throughout most of my childhood and part of adulthood caused my body to produce anti-bodies that have now started attacking the organs/glands in my body. After a visit to an endocrinologist in December 2009, it was determined that I have ovarian antibodies which are essentially antibodies produced by my body that only attack the endocrine system. No doctor has actually confirmed my self diagnosis that the Gluten Intolerance caused this but Celiac Disease is an auto immune disorder and any auto immune disorder can cause your body to attack itself. I am currently waiting to see a Reproductive Endocrinologist to see what the next steps for me will be. I have read that doctors can try and stimulate the Pituitary Gland to get your Endocrine System running again or that you can be given steroids to help restore ovary function. I am hoping to receive one of these treatments in the near future but only time will tell. In the past 10 months, I have watched many of my close friends become pregnant while I remain a sad statistic. This blog contains my thoughts as I struggle through the process of figuring out what in the world is going on with my body and how I continue to try to stay upbeat and positive about my fertility and enjoy my life. I hope that my blog can help others would love to hear from other women going through the same thing, inspiring stories or anyone who just needs encouragement. I know and understand how difficult every day can be once you have received the POF or infertile diagnosis and want you all to know that I am here for you. Please note that some of you may feel I am sharing to much information (TMI) and for that I am sorry. If you want to read my blog…you get all the details. You never know what will be helpful to someone else right? God bless everyone and I wish you luck on your fertility adventures:0) Remember mind over matter!

My intent is to raise awareness of the issues. Please do not rely on this or any other article when making decisions that will affect you and your health. These are things I have decided to try after much research.
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Infertile – a horrible word used to make women who are already feeling bad about themselves want to jump into a pool of chocolate fudge and eat their sorrows away only to realize that not only can they not get pregnant but now they don’t fit in their clothes. A word so easily tossed around by doctors that they don’t even realize they are saying it and a word that you never under any circumstances should google unless you want your brain to explode.

Thursday, April 8, 2010

Dairy and hormone free! Whipee!

I woke up this morning in a panic after sleeping through my alarm for the second day in a row! I don’t know what my problem is this week but I can’t seem to get my butt out of bed on time. I woke up two times in the middle of the night with a strange cramping in my lower abdominal area and I noticed that I was really hot when I woke up. My body temperature has been doing strange things lately. I wonder if this has anything to do with my new diet change? I decided not to go to the gym last night (for the 6th day in a row) and instead went to the local natural grocery store. While I was there, I picked up some packets of Superfood to mix in with my fruit smoothies so that I don’t have to take wheatgrass shots in the morning, I will just drink the powder. I also looked through a few books on healing foods and how you are supposed to eat your vegetables. I had previously read that it was best to eat them cooked, so that they were warm and your body didn’t have to use up as much energy to digest them warm as it does when you eat cold food. One of the books in the store stated that some vegetables are most nutritious when eaten in their fresh “cold” state and others when they are cooked. Now I am all sorts of confused and am really going to have to work on eating raw veggies. I have never been a raw vegetable person unless the one veggie is dipped and covered in ranch or some other yummy, dairy infested dip. Don’t’ act like you don’t all do it! We feel good and tell ourselves we are eating “healthy” by eating vegetables but we are actually wiping out all the nutritional content of the vegetables by disguising the greens in ranch or some other equally yummy cheese dip. The books also discussed all of the horrible hormones that are now present in most of the foods consumed by Americans each day and stated that everyone needs to eat at least 2-3 servings of fruit/vegetables a day. I definitely wasn’t doing that before I changed my diet. It was coffee or a Diet Dr. Pepper (or “DDP” as we call it in the office), whatever I had time to grab on the go for lunch (with another DDP) and for dinner it was whatever could be made in the shortest amount of time. I took care of myself on the outside by working out and having good hygiene but never really considered my diet as part of taking care of myself until my diagnosis. After changing my diet, I now have a fruit & veggie smoothie in the morning (fertility diets state that it is best to only eat fruit/veggies before noon….and it doesn’t taste as bad as you would think…suck it up), a healthy salad for lunch with a caffeine free green tea and fish & vegetables for dinner. I am amazed at how much more energized I am during the day and how light on my feet I feel. My walk feels more “lively” and I find it easier to be in a good mood. I feel great! I am happy to see these results since the new grocery store is causing my wallet to be much lighter then it was before, but I am happy to make the change if it will help me heal the damage to my body. I figure that if I am not able to get pregnant on my own, I will be in the best shape I have ever been in (inside and out) for IVF treatments which will give us a much higher chance of success. On the subject of eating healthier, check out this article entitled “Benefits of Soy for Children.” It compares nutritional content for regular milk with soy milk and lists the reasons why soy milk is much better for us, for example soy milk is much lower in fat and is hormone free. I found it very interesting You think you are doing a great thing by drinking milk but you might want to see what you are putting in your body. For an update, I had cramping similar to what I woke up with last night, through most of the day yesterday which was also another reason I decided not to work out. When I got home from the store I used the restroom and noticed I had a large amount of white and some clear thick CM. It seemed much clearer and thicker then it had been the day before. Not really sure what this means though because I also read in one of the books at the grocery store that taking vitamins can make tracking changes in CM difficult?? It is still a change from previous months….so I will take it. I also have a bad headache today and noticed that my boobs are really sensitive….do I sense ovulation coming? ..maybe?

Reading Materials/Other Items That Have Helped Me

  • Inconceivable
  • Making Babies by Sami S. David, MD & Jill Blakeway, LAc
  • pre-seed Fertility-friendly Intimate Moisturizer
  • restoring fertility - yoga for optimal fertility dvd - you can feel it working!
  • Taking Charge for Your Fertility by Toni Weschler, MPH
  • The Infertility Cure by Randin Lewis, Ph. D.