My Story

Hi there, welcome to my blog. Yes I am a drama queen and yes I have been deemed “infertile” by a few of the medical experts in the great State of Colorado but that hasn’t made me give up my quest to have children quite yet. My husband and I have been on the emotional roller coaster of infertility since March of 2009 when I stopped taking birth control after being on it for ten straight years. I have been keeping a journal since the start of this process and thought I would share it with all of the other incredible women out there who may be going through the same thing or similar thing that I am. At age 28, I have been diagnosed with Premature Ovarian Failure (POF). With no history of fertility problems on either side of my family and normal periods before going on the pill, I was left to accept that I have this condition and that there is no medical explanation for it. Since receiving this diagnosis from a fertility specialist in May 2009, I decided I simply wasn’t going to accept that I wasn’t going to have children with my own eggs. I jumped into the world of Eastern Medicine, worked with an Endocrinologist and even went on a fertility diet trying to get my ovaries to start functioning normally. The conclusion I have come to is this…..having Celiac Disease (Gluten/Flour intolerance) and continuing to eat flour throughout most of my childhood and part of adulthood caused my body to produce anti-bodies that have now started attacking the organs/glands in my body. After a visit to an endocrinologist in December 2009, it was determined that I have ovarian antibodies which are essentially antibodies produced by my body that only attack the endocrine system. No doctor has actually confirmed my self diagnosis that the Gluten Intolerance caused this but Celiac Disease is an auto immune disorder and any auto immune disorder can cause your body to attack itself. I am currently waiting to see a Reproductive Endocrinologist to see what the next steps for me will be. I have read that doctors can try and stimulate the Pituitary Gland to get your Endocrine System running again or that you can be given steroids to help restore ovary function. I am hoping to receive one of these treatments in the near future but only time will tell. In the past 10 months, I have watched many of my close friends become pregnant while I remain a sad statistic. This blog contains my thoughts as I struggle through the process of figuring out what in the world is going on with my body and how I continue to try to stay upbeat and positive about my fertility and enjoy my life. I hope that my blog can help others would love to hear from other women going through the same thing, inspiring stories or anyone who just needs encouragement. I know and understand how difficult every day can be once you have received the POF or infertile diagnosis and want you all to know that I am here for you. Please note that some of you may feel I am sharing to much information (TMI) and for that I am sorry. If you want to read my blog…you get all the details. You never know what will be helpful to someone else right? God bless everyone and I wish you luck on your fertility adventures:0) Remember mind over matter!

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Infertile – a horrible word used to make women who are already feeling bad about themselves want to jump into a pool of chocolate fudge and eat their sorrows away only to realize that not only can they not get pregnant but now they don’t fit in their clothes. A word so easily tossed around by doctors that they don’t even realize they are saying it and a word that you never under any circumstances should google unless you want your brain to explode.

Thursday, April 29, 2010

Peanuts, get your peanuts!

It is five days after my second cleanse and I am feeling good. I have been a work trip to the middle of nowhere Texas and am currently waiting to get on my plane to get back to civilization. Although it was a nice change and kind of a mini-vaca, all I was able to eat on my diet while down south were peanuts and plain lettuce. I was finally forced to eat "meat" this morning when the only thing on the light menu was biskets and gravy, the shortstack pancake or eggs and toast. I settled for scrambled eggs with no glutten mixed in and once I made a stop at the gas station to fill up the rental I bought more of you guessed it....nuts.  I can't wait to see my huband, dogs and my juicer! Oh how I have missed it the last few days.  I have had some positive changes since my last cleanse.  Mon-Weds, I had very heavy flowing, clear CM. None of it was really thick or stretchy but there was lots of it!  Today I still have some but not as much...maybe eating 3 pounds of peanuts wasnt so good for my fertility??? I have noticed that I have a few red spots on my body that have appeared. They are flat and bright red. They stay for a day or two and then dissapear...kind of weird but I am thinking it has something to do with my body cleaning out the toxins.  I havent been in the sun and they dont itch so they can't be bites.  I am anxious to get home and get back on my diet and not eat nuts for a few days.  I am glad I was able to come on this trip. I was able to really relax and focus on something else other then the activity of Mr. and Mrs. Ovary and it felt good.  I have decided that I am going to try and not care what happens this summer. Tomorrow I am going to call the fertility specialist's office and move my appointment to August. That way I can watch and see how my body heals and try for a baby all summer and if we still need help, I think I will be ready in August to go back. I just can't risk going next week and have them tell me something that will send me spiraling back into hopelessville when I have come so far since this time last year.  If I have follicules now, I should have them in a few months and I still have a feeling everything is going to be ok and dont want to rush things. Besides...I gave my body a deadline of Juine 15th. I should at least wait until after that to seek alternate fertility assistance.  Well I have a plane to catch hope everyone has a good night!

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Reading Materials/Other Items That Have Helped Me

  • Inconceivable
  • Making Babies by Sami S. David, MD & Jill Blakeway, LAc
  • pre-seed Fertility-friendly Intimate Moisturizer
  • restoring fertility - yoga for optimal fertility dvd - you can feel it working!
  • Taking Charge for Your Fertility by Toni Weschler, MPH
  • The Infertility Cure by Randin Lewis, Ph. D.