A Good Dose of Laughter and some deep thoughts

It has been a long time since my last entry and I feel like I have been through a lot since then. After my delayed return home from my last business trip, I was able to spend a few hours with the hubby before he was whisked away to Arizona for a few days of golf and lavish dinners on his company. I was left at home to take care of the Chihuahuas a hope that I didn’t ovulate the few days he was out of town. The first day my husband was gone I noticed I had a large amount of white and clear CM but nothing stretchy, the second day was the same but it started to get thicker and a bit clumpy and the third day it got even more thick and was stretchy. The bad thing is that it happened while he was out of town, the good thing is that it finally happened. That is another positive change in my body since starting the diet and life style changes in April of this year. I haven’t had changes in my CM like that throughout this whole process and nothing stretchy like that since last October. Things are definitely getting better, I am positive I will either be seeing a period by the 15th of this month or a pregnancy test (two weeks from when I appeared to have ovulated). This past week I have been visiting with family in St. Louis which has been so nice. I seem to smile and laugh so much while with my family and that is such good medicine. My abs are actually sore from laughing so hard so you know that it must have had other positive side effects on my body. Laughing and enjoying life is so important for anyone to do but is extra important for someone who is trying to heal. I am so lucky to have my family. They are all such a wonderful and important part of my life and I really wish I could see them more. My cousin (one of four of my bridesmaids who have had babies this year) spent a lot of time with me and I got to hold her brand new baby son a few times. I have read that holding a baby can amazing effects on a woman’s body. Perhaps it jump started one of the missing links to my fertility? While on this trip I stuck to my diet and was sure to go on a morning job every morning. I feel really good and for the first time ever, I am returning home thinner then when I left. I am usually barely able to zip my pants as I get ready to go to the airport. As I got ready this morning, I slide right in to my pants and zipped and buttoned them with no problem (not that you care about my pants). The day before I left for this trip, I went to see Mrs. W who gave me the works again. My ionic foot bath had similar results as my last one only this time I actually had clumps that wouldn’t break down in the water that were a very dark read and even more black specks. My body seems to be letting go of a lot of toxins. Mrs. W also recommended some panty liners that have an ionic strip on them that are supposed to help counteract bacteria and promote healthy menstruation. She used them to help re-align her cervix after her last pregnancy and thought they may help my periods not only re-appear but also become more regulated. I have been wearing them while I sleep at night for almost a week. The brand of the liners is Anion and they are not thick and uncomfortable at all. I figure it is one of the less weird things I have tried throughout this whole process so why not? On my flight to St. Louis, I read a book “the Healer Within” which discusses how to heal your body from the inside out. This book explained how to rub hands, ears and feet to help your body heal and also discussed the importance of deep breathing. The past few mornings, I have started my day by taking 10 deep breaths and massaging each of my hands and ended my day by taking 10 deep breaths and rubbing my ears. The book said the most difficult task is working the rituals into your daily routine so now that I have that done…..let the healing begin. Perhaps it is starting to work because I feel even more relaxed then I did before and woke up this morning with cramps. We will have to see, who knows maybe the 15th was the wrong date to be waiting for. I took a pregnancy test last Thursday before I left on my trip so I think I will wait until at least June 15th to take another but maybe my period will come before then?? Only time will tell, I will be interested to see what happens in the next week. As I sit here in the airport waiting for another flight, I am waiting to hear back from a good friend of mine (another bridesmaid) who went to the hospital this morning, 1 cm dialated, ready and willing to give birth. She was sent home after no further progression a few hours ago so I am thinking of her and hoping that she is not in much pain. I know that I will be in the same boat soon and will be interested in everything she goes through.